S u m m e r f e e l

                                        Ciao beauties, 

                 Wishing all of you a wonderful season 
               whether it be filled with rain or sunshine

                              xx

A lot of things happened back in January, I wrote about it :-) *fly back in time*

ode to upbeat from goldenfif on 8tracks Radio.

Memoria +

               A lot has changed within a short amount of time.

                                      Many melodies have been with me along the way:

So here is my Memoria set, enjoy.

Memoria from goldenfif on 8tracks Radio.

Oh and happy March!

You can also find me on tumblr /

x fifi

moving skies

powder blush from goldenfif on 8tracks Radio.

came alone

            Plan on reading Franny and Zooey for the rest of the day.

My countdown tells me: 14 days 6 hours 8 minutes until 

                                             C a l i f o r n i a  

I'm v excited to be spending the last day two days of October in a different State, especially with my dearest Hansy. My mind has been craving change (as per usual) and I miss mountains and cold winds.
Is it bad that I want to start packing right away?

I'll see you soon west coast!

\ somewhere /

Hello dear eyes,                             been endeavouring in bittersweet goodbyes for some time now. I've even tried out a bit of doodling.
My mind has been obviously focused on departing, and creating, and packing, and coats! Coats!

An oversized one. Fluffy. Bit heavy.

Warm. 

One that will be part of my journey and experience my very first winter with me.

One that will last me years and become one of the possessions that I hang on my wall as an art piece but still use daily.

"I prefer to dream"

But getting back to the goodbye subject, my friend Ruby has finally fled fl !!!
I actually drove her & her family to the airport the day of and well we parted. Luckily, I got to keep her pup Charlie as a friend for a week!

but like I said (on something I made but forgot to hand to her of course): Goodbye for now.

Makes me happy to think that I have so many special people in corners all over this small planet of ours, but it also saddens me.

xx

the look

Pillow tears, a reminder of yesterday.
Tight chest with short breaths.
Rising escalators and the memory of nothing and everything with eyes drowning
faint memories of what was and still is.
the look of goodbye.

the look of hope.

amici

The universe continues to bring familiar faces back into my life!
One of those faces includes: Hansel!
I'm so grateful for this and truly missed Hanna's company.

My little mind is already wandering the streets of florence
and dreaming of breeze days, lost in markets and trams and whatnot.
I shouldn't do this to myself, I really shouldn't but I can't help it.

I'll imagine it but will really try to not get too excited.

Day are dropping like flies again so I must get going!
Leave with this (still being edited) playlist which is all I listen to.

Ciao ragazzi.

aide-moi?

I've been disconnected from the literal idea of life.

I haven't realized how dead I've

become till now.




Till I once again, blindly, ignore   holiday's, traditions, or seasons.



I know when it all began but I

 have no clue how to











end it.

Nineteenth dream.

My brain hasn't grasped the fact that there is a new year.

That October, November, December and (now almost) January have flown away.

I'm pretty sure it was a level of depression that I hit after a sudden change of plans and it has simply taken me till this day to come out and notice it fully.

My empty answers lead me to falling deeper when I was questioned about my "current doings".

But skipping alllll that I want to take some time to acknowledge some actual current events 

which I feel have in a way....."brought me back":

My Hannita Ruby love has been gone for 3 days now.. I spent some nice chill days with her as you can see in the following: 

We even recorded a video together!

I had a teary yet great time making her a little bag which included a nice farewell card and a good luck charmed #2 bracelet from Anthro.

She did not leave without one final batch of scones, either!

  

She has gone off to Thailand and I am thrilled and wish I had gone as well.

Accompanying her to the airport was one of my epiphany moments where things started coming back. My memory for goals and time.

 Today was my birthday and well here I have a bundle of photos of different things from this day. I sadly wasn't able to enjoy it as I would've but with all the sweet
people who surround me and their kind words I managed to maintain a special feeling throughout the day. Adelchi didn't leave my side all day as he made sure nothing prevented me from happiness. 

wanderlust

               Fog filled mornings make me so happy.
      Everything keeps getting a bit out of hand....I'm luckily putting aside all the negative thoughts and
           pulling closer to better things.

                                “Every day I discover more and more beautiful things. 

It’s enough to drive one mad. I have such a desire to do 

everything, my head is bursting with it.”

Claude Monet

                         Lately all I do is think about surrounding myself with adventure.
                                    

hanging out in airports

 some adventure includes bruising 

I'm afraid now

I miss having a room very much.
A room full of dreams or basic useless crap is necessary.

A sofa can (sadly) not fulfill those requirements.

fermez les yeux et rêver

Some shots from this past Saturday

Location: Wynwood Art walk.

outro lugar

           Weeks swish past me now a days.

Consisting of sleepless nights with my boy, midnight scary films, long drives, hopeful playlists in my ipod, H&M, The Perks of Being a Wallflower, train rides, and rain.

I am so thankful for all these wonderful things.
It's just hard to tell if I'm happy or not.

latest photos by yours truly

 been chasing light

Anthropologie will always have a place in my heart

oddly enough, the pastels/whites section has become my new hiding spot

October requires more stomach warming meals!

Happy October,

fif xx